No Guts no Glory...

Time and again L.O.V.E. has tricked many and baffled the thoughts of the two noble species tendering mother earth. Is it the desire to know how other feels or how both are connected with an unknown and unseen power? May be that is why Love is as red as our blood. It flows in our very veins and the purity of love can be measure by what our heart does - Purify blood aka purifying Love.

From the olden times where "Men" goes out for hunting and "Women" makes home a paradise to live in to the medieval times and roman history where "Women" empowered the senate and other monarchy or democrats to the modern age where days like 14th Feb bask the complete word in one color - the color of love, the color red, we have seen these two unique species involved in romantic and delicate times.

On a personal note, "I" come from place where it take far more courage in expressing love. No I didn't mean the people who create problems on 14th Feb and hitting women wearing western clothes but the mere thought of expressing love is tricky, charming, Different. For some it is easy but I can see for most it is difficult (that includes me too). And I am not being Gender specific here. I have seen my fast friends from the fairer sex find it hard to break the nut-head of few guys. No one is being blamed here. It is just the shy-factor or the fun-factor making us all enjoy how and when should we express our self.

Currently undergoing physio, I saw young doctors and medical students in groups. Sometimes the professional intimacy helps in expressing ones feeling. Common joke where a male doctor ask a female doctor to check with her Stethoskops why his heart has stop just because the female doctor has stepped into the room.

Going back to "my" world of IT professional, I do not know how to express the same desire here on my blog which I have started to feel recently in my office. I consider myself workaholic. Who believes 5 days of week should be spent labouring in office. Not necessary for 12-14 hrs, like my fellow college mates in Bank, but what ever work is given should be on a ASAP basis. In this mindset suddenly at a party organized by my group mate after being married brought a feeling closely associated to love. I know for certain it is not love. It cant be cause I haven't even talk to her. I saw her in his function and she looked so beautiful. May be a sense of infatuation (if that is the right word...) From then on I got occupied with work and never got a chance to find more about her. Recently luncheon timings have somehow made me come across her. She in simple and I am sure that is what makes me just go across the table and say "Hi" to her. But here is where the whole feeling of knowing someone doesn't work. I won't mind making a fool of myself by this act but what next after Hi? It surely will not work and the only way it will be the disastrous way.

Then comes my evil twin who reminds me of all the problems, she might be engaged to someone? she might NOT seriously interested in guys? she might have family values which restrict her in having such notion? And I respect all of them but don't wanna believe any of them.

Now there is a possible way to know about her personality but asking her close friends. But I get into a risk of her knowing this. It creates a problem as she might not like the whole idea of me inquiring something. So where does it leave me - admirer who sits at lunch table always thinking if he will ever have the GUTS to go over her table and say HI? I will hate to be that person.
So here in the end I just wait to find that one chance where I just get to talk to her, no matter how short it is - 30sec? 2mins? a lunch?

And just to clarify, the title of this short say, No Guts no Glory - its correct and wrong depending in how we interpret it. If you think by knowing someone and making her/him fall in love is an achieved Glory, then your intertpretation is wrong. Here Guts and Glory is to over come the resistance we are born with and overtime we manage to know how to overcome our own limitations. This is how I define Glory. As for Love, I am too small soul to explain what it is like. And even if you read what I say about Love, you will still not be able to understand it. I know Love is something to be felt and not told. Saying I love you is not even comparable than just doing some act which brings smile on her face.

I still wait for those 30secs...